Love of My Life

So this is me and the love of my life. We have had our fair share of ups and downs, and been to hell and back in our relationship through the years, but in the end it's only made us stronger. We have said and done our share of stupid things that we can't take back, but we are learning from our mistakes and it's making us into a amazing couple. He is someone I wouldn't trade for the world. You don't find guys like him these days. I am so glad to have him back in my life, and were not messing us up this time around, he is my first and only true love. I love you babe!!!!!

Country...The Good Life

So as most of you all know I am a country girl. I listen to everything, but country music is my favorite. If you were to go through my iPod, over half of it is country. I love the outdoors, camping, fishing, hunting, going mudding, hanging out with friends out at the lake, having bonfires, working outside. When I'm out in the middle of B.F.E which most of you would call it, it's like a piece of heaven to me. It's so quiet and secluded and your in your own little world out in the country. You have open skies, I remember during Upward Bound we went on a field trip to Chesco's families farm, and I remember me and Stacy walking out by the field in the mud after we had a bad storm and just standing out in the field under a beautiful sunset and just taking it all in. For me being out there it's like I'm in my own environment, the country life is like a stress reliever for me, it's so amazing out there. I have liked country boys & country music and just the country in general ever since I was little. Country music has a meaning behind every song, and I can relate to a lot of country songs with situations that have happened in my life. Most people think that out in the country it's just dirty and boring but really it's not, but then again I like mud wrestling and doing all that stuff, it's all about what you make of it in life. I would choose living in the middle of no where in the country rather than livin' in town or the city any day. I love going to rodeos and watching PBR with all the amazing talent all these people have.The Country life is absolutely amazing.

~Country Girls Do It Better~

My UB Team

Well the Upward Bound Summer Program, is coming to an end here soon. This picture is of me and my amazing team I had this summer. I couldn't of asked for a better team then the one I was put in. We are all so different from one another in so many ways, that each of us will take a piece of one another with us, that made a impact on us this summer. My team had it's ups & downs, just like most the teams up here did this summer, but of course it's normal. I love each and every one of these girls for the little aspects they have that made them into the individuals they have grown to become, and are continuing to become. Then we have my team leader Chesco, in my eyes she was the most unique team leader Upward Bound had this summer. She may seem like a weird one off the bat, but if you get to know her, and who she is and not just base her off the outside, but truly get to know her she is truly a incredible person. All the teachers I have had this summer are GREAT! Each and everyone of them has helped me grow as a person in my life. I took something from each of them, that I will carry with me throughout my life. I just wanted to say thanks to everyone in Upward Bound this year, it's been a wonderful summer! We all love you guys!

When You're Broken

"BROKEN" By, Lindsey Haun


Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the sky
Then it starts to rain, my defenses hit the ground
And they shatter all around, so open and exposed
I found strength in the struggle
Face to face with my trouble

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken

Little girl don't be so blue
I know what you're going through
Don't let it beat you up
Hitting walls and getting scars
Only makes you who you are
Only makes you who you are
No matter how much your heart is aching
There is beauty in the breaking
Yeah

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken

Better days are gonna find you once again
Every piece will find its place

When you're broken, when you're broken

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in yourself
When you're broken
Oh, when you're broken
When you're broken
When you're broken

Why Does Life Have To Be So Hard?

I am going through so many emotions in my life, where I am at the point that I dont know how to handle them. I feel almost lost in my own little world. I'm a emotional rollar coaster. I've always been one of those people who put on this tough front and fake smile to make everyone think that everything is ok. When in reality, it's not. Deep down inside Im hurting, lost, and confused. I make choices in my everyday life to make others happy and not to dissapoint them, but when will I start making choices for me, and for what I want in my life, and say to others when they look down on me for not making a choice that they wanted me to, to say "hey, for once I am doing this for me, because this is something I need to do." and not care and live in the moment of finding some sort of peace within myself. Im always trying to make everyone proud of me, I never really stop to say hey go do something to make yourself happy for a change. And everytime I try doin that I always end up hurting someone in the process. I cant win. I'm 18 now, so when am I going to start making choices for me, and only me, and stop worrying so much about others? Reality is setting in more and more each day. Im considered a adult now, a lost and confused one, in need of finding herself. And I dont want help doing it from anyone, because I have to search within myself, and no one can help with that because its something only I can do. I love everyone who has stuck by me through all the struggles, happiness, and so on. But now I have to start making decisions for me and for my life, and if I make a choice you dont like, promise me you wont look at me any differently and still love me or care for me like you always have, and just relaize I am doing this for me, and there would pry be a good reason as to why I make some of the choices I will in life. I just needed to get all that out........Im going to bed now. Thats been bottled up in me for a few months. Thanks for your time.

My Country Girl Stacy!

So this girl is like home slice. She is my peanut butter to my jelly, she is the wind beneath my wings, the pop to my tart, the star to my burst, the blow to my pop, damn I could go on and on about this girl. She is like my sister from another mister. I met her through upward bound my 1st year and got closer as the years have passed. I love this girl!!! I am glad to have her as my roomie. Without her I pry would be lost up here. Her & I are a lot alike in many aspects. Were both country girls, like the same things, have gone through the same things in life, and were there for each other through it all. It's hard to find people like her to have as a friends these days. If anyone were to mess with her, it would pry strike a nerve with me and piss me off. She is truly someone amazing in certain aspects. If you don't know Stacy, you should get to know her, it would be worth your time, trust me.

Finding My Feet?!?

So I was reading this blog about a guy who wrote a book called "Finding My Feet." It was quite interesting, it's a book on poems that he had wrote since the mid-90's and made them into a book. The book cover has like a picture of his feet over a sky blue color. It's interesting, you should go check it out, it's not a everyday kind of book. Some of his poems have been put in magazines. And was privately distributed up until now.He is very proud of these, so don't be a stranger, go check it out!
Finding My Feet